To my younger self

 Dear younger self:

I wish I could hug you and let you know things will get better every time you are drowning and feeling like nothing is going to be alright ever again. 'Wish I could tell you that all the holes in your head, your soul, your stomach, your chest and your heart will be filled with infinite love of all the people you will meet on your way.

I know you are always going straight forward, but I'd love you to hear that you're doing it well, that all the time you're spending fulling your agenda so you don't have to stay in the house, these tasks, will teach you what you need to make you a kinder and wiser human being. 

Someday you will find out that home is not a place but a feeling you get with friends, family, pets and people you can't even imagine; once you understand what home is, you will take and leave a piece of it everywhere you go.

Dear younger self, I know we make lots of mistakes and feel ashamed constantly, but believe me, you are doing the best you can with the resources you have and you still have an enormous heart though the wounds that keep bleeding.

Little Caro, I wish I could prevent you from hating yourself for all the years you will, is really hard to feel that you can love something that is under construction but the amorphous mass also belongs to you. You have to work on yourself everyday to be a little better; it takes time to understand that the pieces unpolished still part of yourself and you have to be patient until you are brave enough to face your defects and accept things you cant't change.

No matter what, believe me, if you could see what you'll achieve you would be proud about how you overcome every difficulty.

Thank you for always smiling, for letting you feel whatever you needed to feel (even when emotions are discomfort), for setting boundaries when you feel hurt by someone, for having a voice and make it be heard, for choosing the right people to go with on the way, for always learning things that help us to live and, sometimes, survive and for living your life on the way of what is important for you over people expectations.

Dear younger self, there's nothing to forgive, thank you for making me the person I'm now, thank you for making me this happy.

Sincerely, your future you.